My brain, like I suspect many others, likes to drag up old embarrassing moments all the time. I’ll just be sitting there, and all of a sudden I remember something stupid that I did or said, and I have to shake it off. The thing I have noticed, however, is that since I stopped drinking, I haven’t made any new memories like that. Maybe one or two, but nothing like it was before. That’s one really positive thing about sobriety; I have much more control over the things that I do and say. It’s a good feeling, and it’s one that I try to focus on. Giving up drinking has been tough, but it’s given me a clarity that I didn’t have before. And that helps.
Well, it’s been two years since I had a drink. It’s been interesting, that’s for sure. I know that it’s an achievement, to have gone this long without slipping up, but at the same time, tomorrow is just another day, and it’s going to be as hard as yesterday. Having the added crutch of knowing that if I start drinking again it could literally kill me certainly helps. And of course, I have to thank my friends and family, most of all Beth, for all of their support.
So I’ve gone two years, or seven hundred and thirty one days. And all I want to do is have a drink.
I ran across this post while browsing the StopDrinking subreddit, and it struck me as completely true. For those of you who don’t understand what makes an alcoholic, this is for you.
Today marks a year and a half for me without alcohol. That’s something I never thought I would say, to be honest. It’s been hard at times, but with the help of my family and friends, I’ve gotten here. And of course, most of the credit goes to Beth. Without her support I never would have made it this far. In fact, all of my friends and family have been a huge help. I can’t thank you all enough.
So today I put on my year and a half medallion, and I do not intend to take it off until it is replaced by my two year. And based on my past experience, as long as Beth is with me, it should be a fairly easy six months.
Thank you all again, you have no idea how much your support has meant to me.